I have avoided writing this post because I know it will be emotional, but it is now a part of my life. My brother passed away March 22. My dad called to tell me the terrible news. It is a phone call I will never forget. Craig was just 2 years younger than me, my sibling closest in age. We had so much fun growing up together. He set up my first email account back in 2000, when I had no clue had to use the internet. He would burn CD's for me and I thought it was so cool I could choose the playlist. In high school he would come on dates with my girlfriends and I. He was so much fun to talk to; he knew something about everything. I could call and ask him questions about politics, health, computers, whatever..he always had something to say about it. He was juvenile diabetic so when I had gestational diabetes he was the first person I called. During the 12 weeks I had it, I called him regularly to ask him what I should eat, what to do when my blood sugar got too high, etc. I will forever miss him, but the memories will live on forever.
This was when we went to Hawaii
Dennis and Craig in the elevator on our Hawaii cruise.
I have experienced a wide of emotions during the last 10 days, anywhere from disbelief, saddness, thinking I couldn't get through this, comfort, peace, guilt, hysterical sobbing, the list goes on and on. This has been the hardest thing in my life. However, at the same time I have never felt so much love and comfort from our Savior. I know that I will see Craig again and that my family will be reunited together. I know that our Savior loves us and brings us the comfort and peace we need during the most trying times. This does not mean I don't have my moments where I sob thinking I can't live without my brother, but I know he is close around me. Every morning it is a challenge to get out of bed as I am reminded that my brother is longer on this earth. But I know that I can work through this and I have family and friends who love and support me.
